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Friday, August 31, 2012


Gotta get down on Friday! Damn that Rebecca Black song, it's stuck in my head! HELP!

Anyway, last day of work before my weeks vacation - it's a bit busy, but I'm leaving at 2:45PM so it's gong to be a SHORT day. Turns out they're closing the company at 3:00PM today anyway, so it's not THAT early!  I'll hit the bank for vacation/weekend money, then go home!  Well, I might get a latte' on the way.

Things should be quiet over the weekend, I just need to run off to Walmart for a quick task, then it's mostly shopping for ribs for Sunday.  I'm going to slow-cook 'em again, yaay! Monday I'll be cooking chicken, I think - oven-roasted - not sure which spices yet.  Something hot!

Otherwise, urgh.  Having normal blood sugar is taking getting used to!  When I get that "200+ sugar rush" I feel NORMAL but sickish, and I can blast along doing things insanely fast - but it's a "damage level" ont he glucose so it's not a place to be all the time.  I can still code, work, write, etc. on a normal BG level but I feel so lethargic!  I thought it was the blood pressure med (Lisinopril) but since the BG boost "fixes" it, I'm retty sure it's not a major player in the flat feeling department.

I hear this is normal, though.  The body gets so used to the dramatically elevated blood sugar that anything less feels "wrong" and you get tired.  No idea how long it takes to get over it, since I've only been more or less normal for about a month I suspect it's too early to expect to feel decent.

Next paydays check is almost 100% free.  To get a Core i7 system or a guitar?  Decisions, decisions..

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Almost vacation time!

Just today and tomorrow and I'm on vacation!  Including weekends, that's 9 days of not having to drag my sorry corpse into work!   Ohhh, fun and frolics - bbqing, writing, working on music, sculpting, photography! And lots of coffee (lol) and fancy tea.

Retail therapy for todays Payday was: a RAM upgrade for Scylla.  Sure, she has 6GB, but I figured - max it out - in case I end up loading a bazillion samples into Alchemy for some super-fancy soundscape project.

Next week I'm going to go ahead and replace the Asus system with something newer, and convert the Asus machine to a Linux server.  I might end up using it for software development as well, if I don't just get an i7 laptop,k shove 16GB into it, and run Virtualbox.  VBox would save me having to get a new KVM switch, too.

I did the Bad Thing(tm) last night and chowed down on General Tso's Chicken for dinner, with brown rice.  Sure enough - as expected - my blood sugar went up to 2008 for about an hour and a half, before falling to 141 when I finally went to bed.  I knew this would happen, between the sugar in the sauce, the heavy breading, and the carbs in the rice I was asking for trouble.  Weird thing - I could feel my BG go up!  I had this sick "sugar rush" feeling where I had a lot of energy but felt "off" - that's when it peaked.  It only lasted about 45 minutes, though.  Was it worth it?  Sure, I love General Tso's Chicken and I feel less like I'm doomed to eating boring stuff for my last 20 years of life.  And I'm not going to do anything so spectacularly ignorant more than once a month, so that's this months indulgence.

I need to get back into Web design and programming.  Honestly, the whole embedded systems thing is so hit and miss it's not funny, and Web jobs are plentiful (I get an email every week asking how much Java and HTML5 I know.. lol).  Since I'm getting badgered into app development on my current job, it's kind of a natural thing to drift into - and I can study during lunch-time.  The upside is that I can use my Wooly Loach site as a portfolio piece and showcase!  Long-term, this would be the second source of income to tide over between books/stories/writings.

I have to buy one of those small one-person Webers this weekend, I don't want to splurge $100+ on the big grill just for me.  I just need something I can cook OUTSIDE on!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

No more bread on bread, and turning Japanese

Well, based on the experiments I've performed on myself, it's true : bread will really push up my blood sugar, and beans don't do it as much OR as quickly.  I've experimented now over two weeks, and the results from Miss Stabbykins (yes, my pet name for my glucose meter) are inescapable.

when I eat enough beans to feel full (1/2 a cup), I'll go up to about 128-132 after a meal.  Same meal, with two slices of bread or a single English muffin, I see 148-154.  OUCH!!  This is NOT good.

So, I won't be spending any more bread on bread (lol).  I'll be replacing it with beans of various kinds, pearled barley, yams, and the like.  It's going to make for an odd breakfast, but I'll get there...

As to breakfast: well, it turns out that the time I spent in California/Silicon Valley at a small residence in, merrily having miso soup and tofu with rice, was actually amazingly healthy!  Substitute brown or wild rice for the Japanese short-grained white rice and it's a high quality, low-carb meal - especially if I add some meat (fish would be great if I can find a way to cook fish for breakfast in advance).  I can pre-cook a vat of miso soup with tofu and veggies, and serve myself every morning - just dump it in a bowl or mug, nuke it, and it's FEEDING TIME!  This should work out well.

Speaking of Japanese, I need to find a sushi place that will serve me dead fish on something OTHER than rice, since consuming a huge volume of sushi rice will spike my glucose like an NFL player after a playoff touchdown.  I wonder if the local (Roll On Sushi) can make a salad with greens and fish?  I'll have to check!

A lovely, craptastic day.

I know, compared to the folks getting hammered by Isaac, this is trivial, but still.. it's a craptstic day.

It started out with the crazy guy at the bus stop arguing with some invisible person about something completely incoherent.  Worried me enough to hang on to my knife, especially when someone else showed up and he go tin my face yelling "Where did that guy come from?" and I had to tell him to get lost.  I skipped that bus and took an alternate route, which thankfully got me in on time.

Then there's the foot doctor.  I finally had to cancel with him completely, since it's a two hour trip from where  I live to his office in the quiet hills of South Austin, far away from the nearest bus stop, thus costing me $60 in cab fare PLUS the office visit cost of $90.  No thanks, I'll find someone closer.. which is a pain as he's really good, but I can't lose a days work AND pay the cab AND the office fee and afford food.  Meh.

Then I get into the office and have all kinds of issues with the IDE I' trying to learn to create a project based off existing code, there's some setting/settings that need to be set and the guy that owns the original project is clueless, telling me that someone ELSE set it up and he can't help me.  So it's screamingly frustrating trying to reverse-engineer this stuff.

And my dang intestines are acting up, tons of gas and pushing up on my diaphragm, causing massive cough attacks - and my doc is worthless, telling me it's just going to take time for the acidophilous pills to work - he won't even consider the blood pressure meds, where this is a KNOWN SIDE EFFECT.  It's new doc time, this moron is a worthless quack.

In conjunction with my tiredness and clumsiness today (no idea why, my blood glucose is between 100 and 140) it's working out to be a real, real bad day.  I really wish I'd called in sick today!

Ok, other than being bitchy (lol) I do need to work out a blogging schedule so that my main sites (Blogger, AuthorsDen, DeviantArt, and Red Room) get updated at least twice a week.  I have to consider which sites will get what kind of blogs, no point in duplicating everything (just critical stuff).

Monday, August 27, 2012

Bloody, erm, blood! Well, blood glucose!

I swear, it never ends.

So now I'm getting that "late afternoon sugar slump" where my lunch wasn't carbed up enough to take me through to dinner, and I need to find "diabetic friendly" snacks.  And of COURSE, it means - more cooking and/or mixing and/or shopping and/or all three!

The black bean salad I found looks nice, about 15g of carb in a 1/2 cup serving, protein, and seriously tasty other goodies.  This tops my list as I can make a big batch and just bring a small cup in every day for my late-afternoon power-up.  Cheese and whole-grain crackers look fine as well (whole-grain Triscuits and sliced deli cheese and/or string cheese).  Finally, oddly enough a SMALL apple and cheese is also acceptable.  Not too bad!  I'll need to buy more small, reusable containers to hold my snacks since this'll be a five-day-a-week happening.

My biggest grouse is having to fix all this day in and day out.  When I'm at home, this isn't an issue as I'm not having to pack in what feels like a fridge load of food with me every bloody (pardon the expression) day.  And the junk food machine here is full of pure carb and sugar death bags, so it's no help at all.  Cheetos have 11g of carb and 2g of protein so they'll do if nothing else is around (ugh).

So, more expense and more time spent on just staying alive, less joy in the process.  No wonder I'm so damned depressed lately!  This SUCKS.

Another Monday, another.. Monday.

Blech when I get depressed, I certainly take it to the extreme!  Oh well such is the life of someone who's watching everything taken away one tiny nibble at a time.

Five days until vacation!  It's not going to be nearly as fun as I hoped, since I won't be sleeping later than 7:30am due to the pills/Dawn Phenomenon and having to get food into me to stop the upward blood glucose spiral, but at least it's something - and I can always take a nap.  Maybe I'll get caught up on all the things that didn't get dealt with over the weekend.

At least the crispy chicken thighs and green chili and lime ribs came out perfectly!  Can't complain there.

Oh well, work work work for 5 days.  Feh.

Sunday, August 26, 2012


Yeah, it hits me somedays, like an ice pick in my heart.

I've lost so many people, many to my own follies.  I would give m soul to bring some of them back, if I owned it.  I feel so alone. 

Somewhere somehow, angel wings and emerald eyes watch me.  My love, my Sabine, I want to be with you.  No other woman could take your place.  You are my heart, my soul my breath.  Without you, I don't exist.

It's a slow fall, but I will come to you.  We will be one, again, and the pain of your absence will vanish.

I love you. I have always loved you.  I will never love anyone else.  My heart, my soul, my Sabine.

Dawn Phenomenon!

Ok, I've been freaked out lately that even though I don't pack my face at night, my blood sugar starts drifting up in the morning - on no food!  What the heck?  I've been getting stupid-high readings in the morning that GO DOWN WHEN I EAT.  This seemded incredibly counter-intuitive to me, until I did a little research - and discovered it's common for diabetics and NON-diabetics!

It's called "Dawn Phenomenon" and it appears to be natural.  Your body is dumping sugar into your system in the A.M. to "help you" prepare for a long day of hunting and gathering, and chasing down that first meal of the day.  Of course, nowadays "chasing down" means hitting the fridge or the local restaurant, so it's pretty much worthless.. but of course, it's not like your body is going to evolve OUT of the habit for a long, long time.

Today I woke up late and didn't eat breakfast.  Waking BG (blood glucose) was 108, fine.  Inside 2 hours it was up to 167!  And I hadn't eaten ANYTHING, just had coffee with non-dairy creamer (carb free).  Of course I freaked as it kept going up, peaking at 189 (oww oww).  I hadn't had my glyburide/metformin either, so I was asking for problems.

So, it appears that I'm going to have to be real careful about eating breakfast on time.  This likely means no long sleping in on weekends as it jacks everything up, timing-wise.  I guess getting up at 7:30pm on a weekend isn't so bad.. just need to fix up an alarm that'll do it for me.  I guess, staying indoors all weekend is likely not a real good idea either as I get ZERO exercise, and during the week I end up doing a fair amount of walkng.  Hurt foot or not, I'm going to be forced to get out.. I can't just sit here and watch my BG go through the roof, that's an E.R. visit if I'm not careful.

Maybe I should invest in a cheap exercise bike.  I have room in my cave, and if I use it on weekends to keep the exercise up it'll pay for itself pretty quickly - not to mention I can use it when the weather is crummy.  It's aerobic and low-impact, so my foot should be happy with it.

I swear, if it's not ONE thing, it's ANOTHER.  And I was skipping the Austin Hot Sauce Festival to "stay in and rest"!  Bad move!

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Another day shot

Well, despite deiberately staying home and planning on doing nothing but cooking and setting up for writing, not a whole lot on my task list got done.

I did manage to cook crispy chicken thighs (worked out very well), and thre pork ribs in hot sauce are almost done, so that's good.  I have Orion 8.5 installed and my Audio Damage and Voxengo plugins, my Camel Audio software is downloading now.  Laundry is done, my coffee/tea station is operational next to the computer desk, my Web tools are installed, and my writing projects are organized.  My plush toys are set up (2 snakes,an iguana, and a lionfish), and King Ghidorah is the first Godzilla monster in my collection and is out.

Website still needs a complete re-design.  Blogs not wired to my main site.  No notes transcribed from Google Docs.  Room is a bit of a mess with empty boxes.  The Dell lapto is fighting me, it refuses to use an external monitor as the primary display even though it says it can.  And not one damn word of writing done, except in this blog and in chat (I chatted while cooking and installing software).  Didn't even do any sculpting.

This leaves a lot to do tomorrow.  Sigh.  But my digital camera shipped, the studio headphones for the i5 shipped, and my pecan wood and apple wood liquid smoke shipped, so that's good news.  I also bought more "music to write by", now I need to make "mood playlists".

I slept a lot.  My body is having a hard time adjusting to the "normal" blood sugar level after years of 300+, which is no surprise, but it's a serious issue with my energy level.  Feh.

Friday, August 24, 2012

Irritating Silly Book Numbering

Or, better known as "ISBNs".  It's a way to uniquely identify each book out there, whether a dead-tree book or an eBook.  Many places require an ISBN before they'll make your masterwork available for sale, so.. I'm stuck getting some (one per book).

Now, these are NOT free!  The most affordable way is to hit Bowker  and buy a block of 10 for $250.  Use your credit card as they don't take Paypal!  Wave goodbye to your money and hello to 10 long numbers.

If you're a publisher, you'll burn through 10 pretty quickly.  For a self-publishing author, 10 is a decent sized pile!  If I somehow write 2 books a year, then my 10 will last a long time - and this is assuming I can crank out 2 a year!  I suppose it's possible.. maybe.

My estimate is: one for "Dead Ringer", one for "Threshold", one for "Strip", one for an as-yet-un-named steampunk erotic horror novel, 2 more if I finish the Threshold trilogy. That leaves me 4 to play with, say 1 for a Raven Delacroix novel in New Orleans, and 1 if I turn The Vicky Chronicles into a collection.  The last 2 are in case I do a sequel or prequel to "Dead Ringer" (or both).

Right there is about six to seven years of HARD LABOR.  So, $250 over that much time isn't too bad.  It's going to cost more for cover art per-book than the ISBN.  Ugh.

Apropos of nothing: I'm trying to figure out how to link updates from my blogs to my main Website so that you can just visit and see all the latest blog posts.  I think RSS will do it, but it's going to take some work.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Making it Easier

Or, more appropriately, "HOW can I make my writing life easier"? Possibly even "HOW can I make it real easy to stay home and write and not want to go out every night instead?" ARGH!

I've taken a lot of steps to make my Writers Cave a place to stay:

- Comfy chair
- Comfy desk
- Fast computer
- Good keyboard, mouse, and display
- Nice lighting
- Nice smelling
- Good temperature
- Tons of tunes appropriate for writing things
- Tea and tea makings right next to the computer desk

..and yet I find myself thinking "Payday! 1/2 goes to rent, the other half I can GO OUT ON WHEEE" before I get a grip on myself and think about walking all over the place on an injured foot in a stupid, loose protective "shoe".  That helps kill the urge, but, why is the urge there at all?

Could it be "cabin fever"?  I have bee cooped up for weeks now, since getting out of the hospital, and in fact have only "been out" 3 times since my discharge.  I will note that in none of those 3 trips did I have a really good time, I mostly sat around and - you guessed it - thought about stories, or characters, or how to proceed on works-in-progress.  Meh.

It's possible I'm terminally distracted internally - I have a lot of conflicts going on right now, none of which is particularly conducive to "sitting and writing".. between the foot, the blood sugar, all the extra labor of fixing my own meals (breakfast AND lunch AND dinner), having to dramatically change my schedule for waking up and going to sleep to adapt to all this, uncertainty as to how I should proceed to invest my time and energy online, and still adjusting to having gone from a blood glucose of 350+ to around 110 (tiredness, weird physical effects) are taking a real toll on my concentration.  It's slightly screwing with my productivity at work, thankfully I can code even when 1/2 dead and distracted, so it's not much more than an annoyance.

At least there's vacation soon - just tomorrow, then next week, and it's nine days without work!  I have to remember to turn my alarm off - lol!  I'll probably stay at home or go on short bus-related jaunts, nothing too fancy as my foot is still very unhappy with me and needs more "heal time".

That's todays annoyances!

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Inspirational and educational reading

A friend pointed this site out to me, and it matches what I've experienced so far.  It has a lot of good medical information on what diabetes is and the mechanism by which it works, things that my doctor didn't tell me.

Also some inspirational reading from folks with WAY worse problems than I have, that have manged to get things back to normal with just mild medication and a fair amount of lifestyle change.  This too matches my experience - drop the carbs, exercise more, and watch your blood glucose go down!  It's good!

I'm considering dropping my breakfast muffin and getting a breakfast taco on the way to work.  the tortilla is going to be about 18g of cqrbs less than the 25g for the sourdough muffins I'm munching.  If I skip the potato and get egg/chorizo/cheese, I'll have all I need for a healthy low-carb breakfast.  This means I'll have to bring my glyburide/metformin in to the office with me, but I can pack it in my lunchbox with the cold pack, and that will keep it safe from the blazing Texas sun.

I'm also going to attempt to just flat-out stop eating bread at home - I already quit rice - to change to lower-glycemic-index (GI) foods like beans.  Yes, beans still have carbs, but they also have dietary fiber which is necessary.  Adding greens (as in: salads) will help things, especially if I stick a chunk of meat on the top and bring it in to work for lunch!  Grilled salmon or chicken or BBQ RIBS on fresh greens!

In other news, my electric kettle should arrive tomorrow!  I had ordered some flowering teas from Amazon, but they sat in the "not shipped yet" state for too long so *poof* I canceled them.  I can get some nice Japanese tea from the local Asian imports, and the HEB carries lots of new herbal teas, so I should do fine.

Slowly but surely, progress is made.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Dehydration, diabetes, and blood sugar

Today, I made a discovery (d'oh)!  If you don't drink enough water, your blood glucose starts to skyrocket!

I don't drink enough water, I know this already, and worse I drink a LOT of coffee and tea.  So I think I've been running in a constant state of medium dehydration.. and over the past few days I've watched my average blood glucose (BG) creep up.. and up.. and up..

Well, today, 4 hours after lunch I did a test and it was 178!!! OH MY GOD did I freak out!  Was it the beans I had for lunch?  The English muffin for breakfast?  I've had them before without seeing this kind of thing.. what's the issue?  Panic ensued.

I finally noticed I was REALLY THIRSTY.  And did some research - yep - diabetics have to watch out for dehydration as if you don't drink enough water, your BG goes up, ketones back up in your system, you get irritable and unhappy and then it gets REAL bad.

So, since I've been bad bad about drinking water, I slowly sipped in a couple of cups over the past hour and lo and behold!  BG down to 137.  Whew!  Panic over, but what to do about this?

So, first, I've taped a note to my computer (lol)!  So, at least at the office, I'll have a reminder.  At home I'll have to find a way to pester ern REMIND myself to get water into me.  Home should be easier as I can pout a splash of lemon or lime juice in and make the water tastier, promoting drinking more of it.

Sigh - yet another thing to have to keep track of.  Meh.  I'm going to need my dang Android tablet programmed to keep me reminded of all this stuff!

Retail Therapy

Painful day - the hurt foot is giving me a lot of cramping, randomly, which is no fun!  Not even where the injury is, either.. blech.

Regardless, today I blew some cash on a plush lionfish, a plush iguana, and a KING GHIDORAH figurine!  Friends for my two plush snakes, and a start to my GODZILLA monster collection.  I also bought some apple wood and pecan wood liquid smoke to make indoor grilling more flavorful.  Nice!

Not a lot left for infrastructure now.  The electric kettle shipped and should arrive before the end of the week.  Tea supplies should show up next week sometime.  The last things I can think of - and it's stretching - are a 23in monitor to make it easier to have more things open at once (more Scrivener windows!) and a couple of large SDHC cards to permanently put in both laptops as local boot accelerators and non-HD backup storage.. 16GB should do, I suspect.

Things do proceed apace - I'm dropping working on short stories from THE PLAN to focus on novellas, novels, and serials - things better for self-publishing.  The serial will be The Vicky Chronicles, and I' going to make that FREE TO READ on my blog (I'll make a new one) and use it as Shameless Self-Promotion(tm).  Drive traffic not cars!  Or something like that.

Maybe a lava lamp.. I always wanted a lava lamp.. or one of those plasma ball things..

Monday, August 20, 2012

Fiddly Litle Bits

Finally gave in and bought an electric kettle online - none of the local stores carry the high-quality brands, so I grabbed a Krupps unit from Amazon.  I also got a 12-pack of flowering teas for my crystal teapot, and a nice glass mug.  I've set aside space on the table next to my computer station/starship control/writers nest for a hot beverage station, this will make it easier to focus whilst scribbling down things since I won't have to run to the kitchen for Every Single Cup.

Not feeling too swinging today, I think I had too much fun last night!  I was out a bit late, ate too much steak and shrimp (heh) and came home and fell asleep without taking my glyburide/metformin.  Amazingly, when I woke up my blood sugar was only 128, so it wasn't a serious mis-step.

I must be getting old - things I used to enjoy (recently) are getting boring.  Strip club is boring, now CHAT is boring!  Went in last night and it was the same people, saying the same things, in the same way, for the same reasons.  Urgh.  Nothing inspiring there, well, I was inspired to leave and go get "Forbidden Planet" from Amazon.

Two weeks until vacation!  I can't wait, I really need the break and staying home and cooking/writing all week will be nice.  I have one visit to the podiatrist and that's it, the only "serious" thing I'll be doing.

Back to work for me!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Sunday Fun Day

As if!  Loadng up on music frm Amazon (Otep, The Agonist) to listen to while writing.  Definitely not your ordinary mood music!

Both Scylla and Charybdis are about done.  Everything is set up and registered on Scylla, Charybdis needs to share out the backup drive and get the second wireless interface working.  Nothing rocket science here, just need to spend the time.

Definitely in the market for a 23in monitor. Maybe a Dell or Samsung, something clear and clean.  It'll take over my desk but that's OK, I use the laptop displays as secondary monitors and run task manager and such on them.  It makes it easier to track performance, and with Charybdis I run Media Player on the second monitor so I can see what's playing and what's up next.

Not a lot else going on.  Guzzling coffee in an attempt to wake up, considering going out for lunch, and generally thinking that all day in front of the monitor might not be all that good for me - although my hurt foot would appreciate minimal walking, and I ought to do laundry.  I should also experiment with some light sculpting, to get my hands and fingers back into the groove.  I hae as many ideas for sculptures as I do for books!  That's just downright scary.

Sigh - another cup of decaf, a glucose test, then I think I'll start laundry.  I can go out for a late lunch if I want, I suppose.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Saturday Bits and Bobs

Win 7 Pro installed on my Asus system - I'm running it right now.  With IE up and Google Drive installed, RAM usage is.. 1.08GB.  Dang!  That's about HALF of the RAM usage befoe I reinsalled!  Excellent!

It's also snappier - like a new machine, almost.  I have ZERO complaints.  I'll do the server setup later, right now I'm just happy as a clam!  Found and detected the monitor, setup was simple.. so I'm good to go.  Saves the cost of a new laptop.

Well, in other news - I wne out to my favorite "gentleman's club" tonight and I was.. bored.  I mean bored, bored, bored.  How could  I be bored with topless ladies running around?  I'm not sure, it it is completely possible!  So I had a nice ribeye dinner, tipped my waitress a lot, and left.  Bored.  I'll  have to analyze WHY, but for now, it's just a sign I need to be spending my time and attention elsewhere.

I spent almost all the time thinking about my characters, new characters, the various worlds I have in my head, how to write in each of them, the local physics/matic systems... I got a lot of thinking done.  Ended up bored anyway, but it wasn't a total loss as dinner was good.. but.. eh.  Waste of time, I would have had more fun getting a steak at the Frisco and chatting with the nice ladies behind the counter.  Meh.

Other than that, much done today!  I moved all my writings over to Scylla, installed most of my writing tools, installed Win 7 pro on Charybdis, did a little cooking, and have chicken wings prepped for tomorrow!  I still need to get a nice coffeepot for my room, and a cup for my fancy glass teapot, and flowering tea - but that's maybe 15 minutes of work on Amazon.

I still can't believe how fast and efficient this "old" macine is now.  I need to enable the second LAN card, ut that's it for hardware.  Eventually I'll stick a hub on it and a huge backup drive, but that can wait.

It's time to go watch a movie, then bed!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Friday frolics

Another day, another fifty cents - after taxes, anyway.

So far, I've managed to keep from buying stuff that distracts me from writing.  I'm going to switch to sculpting as my "sanity" hobby as I've done it before, I enjoy it, and smashing the CRAP OUT OF THE CLAY is CATHARTIC DIE CLAY DIEEEEE oops, sorry - I'm back now.  Savces me the cost of guitar strings too, which I used to routinely break at least once a week.  Clay is easy to fix (well, Sculpey is) so if I vent on it, who cares?  I might make something interesting!

I'm also doing pretty well blogging here.  I want to blog here and on my AuthorsDen site at least 4 times a week, preferably daily when I'm not neck deep in a writing project.  I need to build up some fans, keep them in the loop, and generally become Self Promoting(tm) or some such.

This weekend, I'm going to finally reformat/reinstall Windows 7 Pro on the Asus machine.  I'm also going to move Scrivener and Jutoh over to the Scylla (the i5 machine) along with the Coffeecup HTML Editor.  Photoshop will stay installed, as will the Wacom tablet.  Charybdis will become the backup machine/music listening machine/movie watching machine and all "serious work will land on Scylla.  Charybdis will also manage all backup media and handle any external storage I add (like my current 640GB backup drive).  I'll need a USB 2.0 hub for her, to handle all the external devices (USB sticks, USB HDs).  the only media creation that's going to happen will be Web art and photos of my sculpting (or other photo of Austin or my travels) - no 3D, no video, no animation, nada else.

I'll need some Sculpey and a marble tile to use as a work surface, and a spare table to hold it.

I've freed up space for a coffeepot/tea maker next to the computer station, on a long bedside table, so I just need the coffee/tea maker.  There's even room to keep the coffee and tea!  My writers nest is coming along nicely.

THE PLAN so far calls for one fantasy/noir novel that might turn into a series, a trilogy or so of novellas, and a mystery series, with the possibility of an occult horror/erotica series as well.  Gotta write 'em all!

Thursday, August 16, 2012

First Steps and Actions

Well, having a GOAL makes some things easier, and some things harder.

Easier? Deciding how to spend my money.  I just ask myself "This this either going to make writing easier, or keep me sane in between writing spells, or fund my writing, or make it easier to sell my work?".   If the answer is "No", then it doesn't get bought - period.  So, new i3 for writing?  No, not when the i5 is now idle and my T4400 dual-core is fast enough to run Scrivener AND Jutoh AND OpenOffice all at the same time.  Bigger monitor?  Possibly, it would allow me to have more Scrivener items open and let me arrange index cards on screen more easily.  Personal coffeemaker?  Could be useful as I wouldn't have to break my concentration or flow to get a cuppa while working.

I still need a couple of hobbies to keep me sane, if I try to do the same thing day in and day out I'll lose it.  I' going to work on re-learning drawing with my Wacom pad and Anime Studio Pro, it's very immediate - no waiting for a render, I draw and it's there.  I'm considering going back into sculpting as well, as again it's very immediate.  No more 3D crap as waiting 20-40 minutes to see if I got something right drives me insane, I do that 8-10 hours a day at work and coming home to the same thing is sure to stress me into madness.

So, next steps?  Learn how to outline, plot, and revise without losing my soul or mind.  For infrastructure, I need to buy a block of 10 ISBNs for my books, and locate a copyeditor (for checking my works ) and a cover artist (because it's a waste of time for me to get good enough to do it myself).

Other things: the Dell D610 is going on Craigslist tonight.  My Vizio Android tablet will also go, but after I get an alarm clock as (sigh) that's all I'm using the bloody thing for.  The Dell screen is too small to write well on, and the Android tablet screen is too small to effectively read my Kindle books, so.. bye-byeeee!

Eventually I need secure backup, probably a wireless NAS or such, but for now I'll back up to a USB stick.

I have a fair mount of music to listen to while writing, I'm going to do some serious loading up on different genres so I have a massive variety available.  I also need more Kindle books, in genres I don't normally read, to help broaden my horizons.

Oh, and Holly Lisle ROCKS!  The more of her lessons I read, the more fired up I feel about my GOAL!  Yeah, go me!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

In The Beginning..

..were the Words.  And lo! I looked upon the words, and saw that they might, on a good day, be publishable.

And the words floated int he Sea o Chaos, bearing form but incomplete.  And there arose from the same Sea endless idea for short stories, novellas, and book series.

But the ideas were scribbled down and left to sit Alone In The Dark.  And there was no Goal, and so no Path, and no Plan. And confusion confounded the Words until there was much Rending of Garments and Gnashing of Teeth (and on occasion Wailing as well).

And lo, after much Reading of Good Books on Writing, the Word of Holly Lisle came into Me, and I was Enlightened.  And so war born THE GOAL.

Yea verily I said unto myself, "I shall be a PROFESSIONAL WRITER within 5 years". This is THE GOAL, and I saw that it was good.. enough.

And THE GOAL awoke, and spoke unto me, saying: if you want to quit your day job, you need A PLAN.  For without A PLAN, you shall not reach me.  And yea verily and all that stuff, THE GOAL had a point.

And so I am creating THE PLAN.  A step by step process to go from a lowly wannabe writer to being able to pay rent, food, and other bills strictly form my writing.  It's not going to be easy, and it's not going to be fast, but it doesn't rely on anything exotic or miraculous, either.

So let THE PLAN be formed, the PATH taken, and something Actually Be Accomplished!

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Using tools, being a tool, tooling along

For the first time, I've brought my "portable writing laptop" into work, to see if I can get anything useful done during my lunch hour.  I can't bill for the time I'm eating, so.. I have to fill up the 45 minutes when I'm not stuffing a sandwich or such down my throat!

I've discovered a few things so far:

- A 14 in. screen is actually pretty miserable to try to do anything meaningful on if you don't have perfect vision
- Lugging even a lightweight laptop around is a complete pain in the butt
- There are a million annoying distractions at the office, other than pestiferous but well-meaning overly curious co-workers
- Software doesn't make up for a bothersome, burdensome process
- Windows XP on a small, old Dell is pretty darn slow
- My Android tablet is easier to read and it's SMALLER  - font size? WinXP on this machine won't get any bigger, font-wise

And so, until my patience finally ran out, I found myself trying hard to work FOR the tool as opposed to the tool working FOR me!  Not much got done (I did remember the one curse word I knew in Dutch), and I feel pretty used right now.  There has to be a better way!

It's weird that I can sit down and blog every day without strain, but Blogger is easy to use, I'm on a 19in monitor, and I can scale the font if my eyes decide to give me too much grief. Hmmph!

At this stage, given the experiments I've done, I think a "portable writing machine" isn't for me.  The mechanical process of getting anything useful done is painful enough to make me resist doing it, which means nothing gets done.  I suspect I'd write ore in a paper notebook, and in fact, that's my NEXT experiment!

It's entirely possible that I need my "writers cave" to do any serious work.  I only really need the ability to capture notes ad inspirations, not to blast out 1000 words while I'm sucking down coffee and trying to ignore the stares of the other coffee-shop denizens (who have laptops too - I mean, what the heck).

I'll sell the Dell D610, extra battery, and extra charger + carry bag on Craigslist for cheap.  Since I have 2 laptops at home as well as my Android tablet, I don't need a backup machine at this point and obviously it's not going to work as my portable tool.

Oh well, live and learn, and at least it didn't cost me a fortune to figure this one out.

Monday, August 13, 2012

More Monday mumblings..

Well, much done over the weekend - new laptop up, running, and integrated into my homegroup, some 3D apps installed, content moved over, and some test renders done.  Yes, the new machine is FAST - plenty fast for my needs, at least my 2D/3D art requirements.

Which brings me back to writing.  The Asus system, now cleaned off, does a dandy job of playing MPO3s while I'm running Scrivner (or Jutoh) and have IE going.  I still have about 1.5GB of RAM left, and neither CPU is really maxed out even watching movies streaming from Amazon.  Seems like there's not a lot of need for a new computer unless I want one Just Because(tm).

So now, it's time to load up on things that make my writers nest more attractive to stay in!  First up - a K-Cup Coffee Maker!  This will let me make coffee in my room, one cup at a time, without having to go out and make a ruckus in the kitchen and possibly disrupt my Creative Flow(tm).   Also on the way are more flowering teas for my glass teapot - watching the tea ball blossom is a very pleasant, meditational experience.. so relaxing.

Mood lighting is on the list although I'm not sure what kind. Lava lamp?  Plasma ball? Strings of pulsating LEDs hung around the computer station?  I'm not sure.  The lighting is good but very utilitarian, something nicer would make it more pleasant.  Nothing TOO garish, though!  Forget the fog machine and strobe lights.

I' reading through Holly Lisles "Mugging the Muse" today in between writing protocol specs and finding weird bugs in Other Peoples Code(tm), it's a WONDERFUK eBook - helped me a lot already and re-energized me for writing.  I also have her "How To Write Page-Turning Scenes", which addresses another of my somewhat weak areas.  I think I'm good with characters, settings, and the plot - but turning the fuzzy cloud of a world in my head into concrete (more or less) words is something I need practice with.  And the only way to really learn to write - is to write!

Back to my hot tea - until later!

Friday, August 10, 2012

Evening Thoughts on Writing

Sitting at home after a blast of a night out, sipping French Roast.  I had a ton of fun, didn't touch any alcohol, and onl ate low-carb food.. and still had some serious fun!  Very heartening, and great for my morale and motivation.

I've been reading Holly Lisle's tutorial/lesson book/inspirational writings "Mugging The Muse" and it's led me to some serious reconsideration of how I'm approaching my writing.  I highly recommend this book to any and all aspiring writers!

First, I'm going to re-do the plot for "Dead Ringer".  I'm pretty happy with the characters but the plot isn't going where I want it the way I want it, so I'm going to REVISE AND RE-WRITE.  Firs thing I learned: DON'T BE AFRAID TO REVISE.

Second,  I'm going to get all the thoughts and ideas I have for "Strip" and "Threshold" down and work on research for them at the same time as I revise "Dead Ringer".  Second thing I learned: DON'T BE AFRAID OF IDEAS.

Finally, I'm going to work on the characters in "Dead Ringer" a bit and beef them up.. same for the characters in 'Strip" and "Threshold".  I need to add some depth, some foibles, and a generoius dose of both uniqueness.. and myself!  Third thing I learned: INTERESTING CHARACTERS MAKE AN INTERESTING STORY.

This will keep me busy a while!  Which is good as I spent serious cash on a new laptop for doing content creation and I'm low on funds until next week.  I'll be doing a lot of infrastructure work - installing my 2D/3D content tools on Scylla, reformatting Charybdis and installing Windows 7 Professional (to see if it makes it faster without all the crap I've dumped on it over the year), and finally working on my WoolyLoach website to make it a WRITERS SITE.

I have to stop being afraid to write, because, well, I am.  I'm afraid I'll suck, I'm afraid I can't learn to be a better writer, i'm afraid nobody will like what I write, etc. etc. until I freeze up and continually put off doing ANYTHING.  Writers WRITE, and I want to WRITE!  I have vast worlds in my head that want to come out and manifest, to amuse/entertain/scare/horrify people (and me)!  Those books will NOT write themselves!

And so Dear Readers, I'm going to finish my coffee, make sure that Charybdis' backup is running well, and  I'm off to bed.  Tomorrow is another very busy day!

Friday Foibles and Maunderings

I shopped local last night - the Office Depot on the bus route home got a computer sale, and I got a nice Lenovo Core i5 system for $550 (including tax).  This is now SCYLLA, and she'll come online this weekend.  Scylla will handle content creation (2D, 3D, and music).

I haven't decided if I'll replace the Asus or not.  It's not super-fst (just 1540 on Passmark) but with 4GB of RAM and a 320GB HD, it does run Scrivener and Jutoh just fine, as well as Coffeecup HTML Editor.. so it's hard to justify dumping another $450 on a laptop that I won't really push.  And while the built-in keyboard is flaky, since I'm using an external KVM system I can't really say the hardware is failing.. so.. I'm going to reformat the HD and install my copy of Windows 7 Professional on it.  That will wipe out all the built-up crap on it, and then I'll install my Web authoring and writing tools and be done with it.  Charybdis will be for Web surfing, video watching, email, spreadsheets, writing, and ePublishing - for which it's more than powerful enough.  If the R&R doesn't bring the performance back, THEN I'll get a new machine out of my next paycheck (the 17th).

Which leads to MUSIC.  Well, I've hit Guitar Center over and over in the past few weeks, and have always come away with the same result - my fingertips are WAY too sensitive now from all the stabbing (blood glucose tests) and trying to play even a fancy high-end guitar becomes painful so fast that I'm not encouraged to try to "play through the pain".  This actually sucks as that used to be a big part of my life and now it's gone.  Feh.  So my choices are: give up on music; stick to pure composition and forget performance; or get a MIDI keyboard and perform SOMETHING.  I'm really up in the air about this, I'm loathe to give up music completely as it's been a big part of my life - but as PERFORMANCE more than composition - but jamming out on keys isn't really that satisfying to me.  I'm wondering if bass would be less painful to deal with?  mabe I should give it a try.

Can't wait for today to be over - I have a ton of things I want to do when I get home!  And I might go ahead and go out tonight, Just Because(tm).. well, I've cooped myself up in front of the computer (and in the hospital) since July 5th!  I need some happy fun time, even if it doesn't involve booze!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Paypal SUCKS, but you knew that.

Well, I WAS going to buy a new quad-core i7 laptop today, but guess what? Paypal won't let me!

You'll LOVE this - so, I contacted Paypal to make sure I could pay $900 from my bank account to Newegg so I could get the laptop I wanted.  Paypal said sure, the account is in good standing, it will be fine.  So today, I have a pile of money and I want to get the laptop.. so I go there an d use Paypal.. tell it to use my bank account.. and GUESS WHAT? Paypal tries to charge my credit card instead!  Of course, this bounces to the Moon, so Newegg says "sorry".

So I call Paypal to ask "wtf"?  And the mind-numbingly incompetent bozo at the other end of the line has no idea why it tried to charge my card when it says "bank account", he's clueless.  And worse, he can't promise that the damn system won't eventually try to take the money out of my account anyway!!! What in hell?

So you know what?  I'm going to take today off and go to the bank, get $1100 out to make SURE if Paypal tries anything it's going to bounce to the Moon, then I'm going to CLOSE my damn Paypal account.  Since I have the Walmart Money Card, which works with Amazon and a few other places online, I don't need stinking, incompetent, gene-damaged reject Paypal any more.

As to the laptop? I'm going to take my cash to Office Depot and buy local.  It won't be as fast, or as perfect, but it'll be in my hands TONIGHT and I can start using it right away!  And if there are any problems I can just take the BUS to the store and resolve them!!!

Screw Paypal.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


Ok, admittedly not the most interesting or comprehensible thing I've ever written, but it does cover how I feel in a single, easy to type and read word.  BLARGH!  I think of it as a nice, nasty mix of "blech" and "argh", which sums today up nicely!

I'm not happy with how slow things have been since I went into the hospital.  Sure, I could blame my foot injury, my blood pressure (and med), my diabetes (and med) but frankly.. I've been slacking.

No work has been done on The Vicky Chronicles except for some character bios.  I haven't done anything to "Dead Ringer" but stare at the plot outline for the rest of the novel, just before getting coffee and hiding from it all.  My primary website is painfully out of date, and I haven't updated my DeviantArt site in a few weeks.

The most exciting thing I've done is fiddle with a 3D scene of a giant radioactive slug eating a gas station, as kind of a "B Movie" thing.. but it's not top quality or even good enough to dump on DeviantArt as a work-in-progress.

I wonder if I've been spending too much time in front of the computer, and not getting out and being inspired by life.  Sure, only now is my foot well enough to be able to walk more than to/from bus stops without fear of The Foot Doctor ripping me a new one, but there ARE places I can go.  And it's not like I *can't* go out, I just need to be careful what and how much I eat - a diet Coke and 10 not-sweet wings aren't going to put me into the E.R.!  Or even a Casino El Camino burger, I just skip the fries and don't eat the bun - problem solved - and stick with unsweet tea instead of beer.

I need to get back into the writing groove!  I can justify not diving into TVC deeply as moving scene files from my old machine to the new one I'm ordering TOMORROW would be a screaming pain (if it worked at all). but my Scrivener writing projects are on a bloody USB stick and self-contained.  I even have a second power adapter so I can bring my Dell with Scrivener into the office to write during lunch!! Come on ED, get your TAIL in GEAR!

How am I ever going to become a self-employed, self-sustaining author if I don't WRITE things to SELL?

Blargh! *facepalm*

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Pod Eye A Tryst

Well, today was my first post-op with the podiatrist.  Looking good!  he said it's healing faster than expected which is a Good Thing(tm).  Of course all his interns came in and had a look, apparently he had shown them all the "before" pics.  My foot is famous, in a small way!

So, I'm allowed to stop using the cane once the cramping stops, he said maybe a week or so of mild exercise.  I'm also allowed to bandage minimally, let the foot "air out" and the skin grow back naturally.  I'm still stuck in the protective shoe for at least 3 weeks, though!

Doctors orders: daily GENTLE scrub, pat dry, and use this special magick foot cream that's supposed to help the skin heal and become more supple and strong.  I can do that!  And again, GENTLE exercise, no 5 mile hikes yet!  Ok, fine, the 3 miles to/from work will be my limit for now.

So that's all good,.  With the foot healing nicely and the blood sugar being pretty stable, things are going.. OK.  I'm kind of depressed about not being able to go wild when I go out, and no booze, and no feasting on carbs, and not being able to hike weekends downtown on the lake and near the springs, but SOME of that is temporary, and the rest I can handle by telling myself: would I rather party for about a year and then die slowly and horribly, or have OK levels of fun and finish my novels, my interactive fiction, my Web comics, and possibly live to travel around the U.S.?  There's a no-brainer!  And I sometimes Google pics of people who have untreated late-stage diabetes.. shudder.. it's GROSS.  VERY motivational.

Ok, back to making chicken wings, and heating up my beans!  I bought more veggies so tomorrow night it's squash and bell peppers in dill and butter, then it's Brussel sprouts and green onion in a spicy red chili/soy sauce!  Who says diabetic food has to be bland? NOT MEEEE!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Sweet dreams are made of this..

..too bad that's not how mine are coming out!

A pretty successful weekend - got all my errands done, and managed to get some more content installed and some infrastructure work completed.  Even managed a render of a giant slug attacking a diesel pump station (a RADIOACTIVE giant slug, even)!  Not good enough to post on DeviantArt, but fun to play with.

As to dreams: well, every night since I've come home from the hospital I've been having a fair number of dreams, and yes, I do recall most of them pretty vividly.  No real nightmares, just the kind where I wake up, stare at the ceiling and ask myself "What the HELL was that all about?".  Just really weird dreams, sometimes with almost-nightmare situations that turn into "Weird but not scary" things.

The first few times I just assumed I was catching up on my sleep debt.  My pre-accident lifestyle was pretty unhealthy and my dreams were mostly short and terrifying or flat-out missing (a bad sign), so I figured I had a LOT to catch up on.  But as time passed and things showed no sign of slowing down, I started to look for external causes.

Now, I've read here and there that low blood sugar can cause odd dreams and nightmares, so the last time I woke up with a "wth?" moment, I dragged myself out of bed and took a reading.  It was all of 102.  Ok, obviously not "too low" or "too high" blood sugar.

Next assumption was dehydration as I know that will mess with my dreams.  So, I tracked how much water I've been having, it's around 6 to 9 glasses a day.. so likely NOT dehydration.

So I've been researching the glyburide/metformn to see if anyone else has had odd dreams on the stuff.  So far, the only cases I see involve interactions with other drugs, and the reporting frequency is really low (less than 3% of the time).  So I suspect that it's not the diabetes drug.

That leaves me with 2 possibilities: either the blood pressure med (alone or in combination with the diabetes med), or the massive and sudden lifestyle change.  Now, they lisinopril (BP med) has a reputation for causing all kinds of issues, from weakness/sleepiness (heh, that's ME) to cramps, coughing, and other nasty bits.  I' tempted to contact my doc and see about going OFF the stuff  to see if my energy comes back - my BP isn't really usually much of an issue and last time I had it taken it was 128/93 (on the med).  I think I'm on the smallest dose possible, I need to check when I get home.

If it keeps up, I'll bother my doc about it.  I give it 2 more weeks.

Went insane on Amazon today and loaded up on all of the Edgar Rice Burroughs Barsoom books, some Greek mythology, and a highly-rated book on improving a diabetic diet.  Quite the mix!  I have to remember to load them on my Android tablet too - right now I'm reading the diabetic book via the Cloud Reader.

Podiatrist tomorrow - shoots the whole day.  Oh well!

Friday, August 3, 2012

Friday, Friday (again)

For some odd reason, every time a Friday rolls around I think of that Rebecca Black song.  I'm considering therapy at this point, but I'm not sure it'll help.

Anyway, this has been a long and painful week.  I've felt horrible all week, worse yesterday than I have in a long time.  Today is better but still digestive distress, tiredness, and general off-ish feeling.  Part of it is not drinking enough water, part is poor sleep, and part is coming off the anti-fungal.  It's going to take a week or two before things reach a stable point, but I've had less gastric trouble today than normal, so something is helping!

This weekend will mostly be spent organizing and loading more 3D content.  I have the chassis for the backup drive and I'm going to get that set up so I can back up my Asus laptop.  I have a buyer for my RAM so that'll get shipped out tomorrow, and I'm going to shove some money on my Walmart prepaid VISA and start testing it to see which places will accept it.  Then some light shopping, and home.

I've been considering getting a small espresso machine or one of those single-cup coffee systems, and getting both regular and decaf for it.  The coffee bags work.. OK.. but it's just barely acceptable.  I don't drink more than 3 cups a day, so making even a small pot makes no sense.  But we'll see.  I could use a digital pressure cooker as well, for cooking inexpensive cuts of beef and making beef and chicken stews.   But neither item is a must-have.

By the end of the day I will have earned enough money to get my main production 3D machine:

..this thing is a BEAST, and I'm going to immediately max it out to 16GB of RAM.  It's going to be the main machine in my Webcomic production pipeline.

Next week, I earn the money for my ePublishing/Web/Chat/Music machine, which is:

..and this one will also get maxed out to 8GB.  That will put paid to my needs for the foreseeable future.

The jury is still out on the guitar.  I need to spend an hour at Guitar Center to decide if my fingers can hack metal strings any more.  I guess my other option would be to go acoustic and get a nylon-string classical guitar, I could play blues and new-agey stuff on it.. urgh.. maybe.  And there's always a keytar.

Meh, back to work for me!  I'm writing help documentation, now the worlds most overpaid tech writer.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

The "B" Movie and I

I hereby confess.. I love bad horror movies!

From the classic Godzilla "man in a rubber suit" movies to "Zombie Strippers", from the classic Hammer Dracula films to the exploitative "Cannibal Girls", I love 'em all! The WORSE, the BETTER!

I grew up on B movies, thanks to my Dads love for them.  We'd go to the drive-in and (despite Moms better efforts) Dad would bring me along.  I saw The Blob, the first Dracula Hammer film, and all kinds of zombie and mummy pics - more than I can recall.

So today, now that I have a debit card I can load up, I'm going to cram money on it and work my way through Amazons collection of Instant Video bad movies!  In fact, I'm going to be working on a "B" movie-inspired Webcomic and this is erm uhh, "research".  Yeah.  Is there low-carb popcorn? Darn, no.  Maybe I can find sugar-free theater candy!

Anyway, while I've invested lots in 3D assets for The Vicky Chronicles, I do have a pile of "B" horror movie items that will prove useful int his production.  I'm missing cities to destroy, but I have a pile of things that can be used as mutant monsters (mummies, zombies, vampires, giant insects, random monsters, and even YES a creeping brain).

Again, all of this will be on DeviantArt as well as some on my own site as I complete things.   I'm going to start with some fake movie posters, which will give me practice in setting up scenes.

Apropos of nothing, now that I'm coming off the anti-fungal my digestive system is killing me.  I hope the digestive flora pills I'm taking will help, the doc says it'll be 2 weeks before things begin to settle back down, and to cut back on coffee/tomatoes/acidic foods until then.  Argh!  Fine.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Finally off the foot medications!

Last week I took my last Cephalexin antibiotic, and today I took my last Gris-Peg antifungal.  This means I'm down to two pills: the glyburide/netformin and the Lispro<whatever> blood pressure medication.

I'm hopeful I can eventually get off the blood pressure med, it's the smallest dose you can get so I think it'll be pretty easy to escape that one once I drop some weight.

In the meantime, weight IS coming off, slowly but noticeably.  I've had a couple of people ask if I were losing weight, and my face does look thinner.  I seem to be healthiest at 185lbs or so, which I think is close to my ideal weight at six foot tall (179lbs, in theory, for optimal BMI).  I suspect that quitting drinking combined with dropping snack foods is helping, especially since my blood is no longer sweeter than maple syrup!

In the meantime, fine-tuning my diet.  Green peas and carrots seem to push my glucose up pretty quickly, so I'll be cutting back on those.  Red, pinto, and black beans cause a slow rise and a slow fall, those go on my "eat any time" list.  I haven't tested my reaction to corn, that's coming up, or green beans.  I'm flat-out avoiding pasta, period!  Meat and fish of all kinds are (of course) fine.  Even my Sri Racha sauce, which has a touch of sugar, isn't a serious contender for Glucose Kicker Of The Day.

I've discovered that they make low-carb tortillas that have fewer carbs than the whole-grain bread I've been having, I'll add those to my mix (especially for breakfast and dinner, to make tacos with).  I've found a green salsa with no carbs, and now will search for a red  I still have no reasonable pizza solution, pizza crusts are deadly loaded with carbs, muffins are still 28g each (two mini-pizzas) and flax-seed flour crust is.. well, just nasty.  Maybe pizza omelettes? Well, if I can find a sugar-free pizza sauce (good luck with that) or a garlic-white sauce that works the same.

Every day, something new!